I’m out. Okay, no really, I’m out. I’m done, I’m sick, I’ve had it! I’m good, finally. I’m really good in this place, this town, my flat. I love my home, my work, my friends, my wonderful boyfriend, my life. Sometimes it is so hard to erase negative influences and sources of negativity from life and it is so damn hard to try to ignore it. To be good with it, to be fine, to not worry, not think about it, not let it get you down, not loose faith in the good things, in the sunshine, in the warmth of summer, the warmth of being with people you love. But incredible things happen all the time. Every morning the night goes away, the appetite for pizza comes back at some point, inner calmness too. I have become very spiritual in the last weeks and months (and that’s not because my work has to do a lot with spiritual people :P) It’s because I have seen a part in the world that makes me worship life on this beautiful planet, makes me catch a moth in my kitchen to let it free again outside, makes me value that I can drink tap water, makes me feel grateful for living in my own space and never having money issues ever, makes me want to speak my mind about what I think is not right.
Wherever you look you can see something bad or you can see something good. I have learned that attitude can change everything. So whenever I looked at my life, my relationship, my work, my behaviour, in the mirror, in my wardrobe, in my CV, I only saw what I did not like instead of seeing something beautiful, something special, something to be proud of, something to be happy about.
Life is a journey, and it’s definitely not for cowards but as long as you and me believe that we can grow, we can have it all.